Tuesday, November 29, 2005

One Night

Blinking her eyes
getting rid of this blocking fog
dark, white, and grey
so thick and heavy

everywhere and all over
she can't stand the heat
the pain of the light
hurting her bare skin

pounding and racing rapidly
so ultimately
leave her voluptuous-self breathless

Her beautiful mind frozen
caught for a moment
trapped in a nowhere
found herself staring here
there and everywhere

Staring at her pathetic gorgeous soul
in a glass of shadow
in dusky light
questioning herself
...the figure mirrored
wondering about now,
then and tomorrow
doubting her, him, you, and them

this night,
Just one night.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Stressed, Depressed, Happy, and Everything

November, it's one of the busiest months at work. There is always so much work to do...and of course, dead lines to deal with. Phew! So, whenever november comes, I can't help but feeling stressed and depressed.

It's just funny to see that everyone at the office has been grumbling about how much workload they have. It's our 3rd year working at MLT. We still have another 1.5 years to put up with all the attributes of the institution. I just can't wait till the contract is over. I've made up my mind not to stay with them after July 2007. And it seems that some of the senior full-time employees have the same idea. I don't care about promotion and else that they have offered me. So, that's it!

Things at school are more or less the same. Some students are showing a good progress, while some others aren't. My students at VIIc-class have driven me nuts. I've been feeling like teaching a group of jungle creatures. They are just.....phew! I can't even describe them in words. But, I love them anyway :)

At the senior high school, we have had listening session this past week. Most of the students seemed to like the song much. Even the teachers are in love with it that whenever we hang out during break time, we always sing it. It might just like another love song that people listen to every day. However, I like the words. It's not even a popular song that you hear on the radio. I didn't even know about the singer, Darlene Zschech, not until Ms. Nina, one of my best work-mates, told me about her and promoted this song Everything about You.

I've got some new friends and have been talking to them quite often lately. It's just nice to meet new people, see different angles, and talk about so many things from different point of view. It's simply a good thing to socialize with people who click.

Anyway, I really can't wait for the upcoming holiday!!! I just wanna sleep, sleep, sleep (again :p hehehe), play games, read books, and do fun and relaxing things ^__+

Saturday, November 12, 2005


Work has been the same, though things aren't back to normal super hectic and stressing days. Perhaps the scent of 'lebaran' is still lingering. I miss those 7 lazying days. I always love holidays. Well, who doesn't? ^_+ It's time to slow down from routine things, to eat ( :p that's why I've gained 2 kgs), to relax, to read books, to watch vcds, to date ( too bad I didn't have anyone to date last holiday :( ) , to sleep, and to do whatever fun things that make me happy.

Life has been harder and harder each day. I'm not sure anymore....what kind of future I'm holding in this crazy world. I still have faith in many things, though. It's scarry to see how things are getting more and more expensive while salaries are not going any higher (not including those people who call themselves 'wakil rakyat-people's representative)'. Crimes are everywhere. Someone may get angry easily and kill others because of a very simple and stupid reason. There are more people around me who only think of working on their own profit and be happy over others' misfortunes. I can hardly imagine how someone with a wife and children, who earns only 500,000 IDR (US$ 50) would live. How sad this condition is.

There have been some adjustments I've been doing these past 3 weeks, like no more going here and there by taxi (unless for very urgent things), no more regular shopping, no more buying unimportant fancy things, reducing my weekly 'hang out at excelso' habit, and reducing clubbing nights at desperado with close friends. So in other words, it's about self-control and setting priorities.


I just can't wait for my next trip. It's still about 2 months away. I haven't booked any tickets yet, but have done some online searches and checkings. I hope I can get a good offer in a month :)

and....Jack Johnson is still my favourite. I still can't get rid of him and his music. He's really a good singer!

Another new thing is I've just had my computer cleaned and reinstalled. No more spywares, errors, and viruses. I just can't understand why those people create viruses and ruin things. Bah! So glad that opening files is fast and easy now. What a relief! I should thank Valens for helping me ( well, it's not free, but I hope he won't charge me that much, hehehe :p ).


Sunday, November 06, 2005

Time like this...

Inspired by Jack Johnson

At a time like this
when life is slowing down
when devils are taking a break
from their basic chores
when her complicated-self ...
is winding down
resting her mind,
weary soul,
and crampy legs

Forget those cruelties around
Leave the same old-brand new pain
there...far away
Ignore doubts
and uncertainty
And just be selfish
Be simple

It's just great
that great!