Birthday

Monday, November 3, 2008 -- Today is mom's birthday. We're having family dinner. Some very close relatives are coming, too. Like our typical manadonese b'day dinner, there's always super hot & spicy food. We even have mango and chocolate pudding for dessert. The only thing that we don't have this time is a birthday cake. Mom said it's a waste of money when we already have much food served on the table. That's my mom! :) She would prefer spending the money for daily needs to something like a birthday cake on her birthday. Happy Birthday, Mom!

What a morning!

I'm back to Surabaya again. I was planning to call in sick (though i'm not), but I'm 'too' responsible to do it. I'm feeling exhausted and sleepy after a long trip back from Bali to Surabaya. What's ironic is my manager texted me when I just got in and put my bags. He asked me to handle his classes 2day while I actually have my own. Great!!! "I've got to meet somebody at another school unit," he said. He could've chosen another day. He knows that we're out of teachers, but he's doing it again. Yeah right! What a perfect way to start a long work day.

Moving in

Finally, tomorrow is gonna be the time 2 move in! It's gonna be a busy sunday as we're moving the electronic appliances and other things like the books i need for private teaching and else from my old place to the new one.As much as the excitement I feel 4 a bigger house with a better neighborhood & facilities, I hate the moving. It takes weeks for me to pack and unpack. Phew! However, I'm happy 2 have a change,especially after some unpleasant experiences I've had.A new place means a new hope, a new & better life, and hopefully, a new boyfriend :p

Moving on

Finally.....

I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now, but I'm relieved that it's finally over. I've known it for long that it's going nowhere. Someone once called me a 'keeper'. Now that I look back and see everything that has happened, I think I am a keeper. It's just I probably often keep things that aren't worth-keeping.
Despite my nature of being a considerate person, I have to learn not to always consider too many things when making decisions.

Well, life is full of surprises and things happen for a reason. So, this must be time to really open my eyes and see in a better perspective. It's been 8 years of various feelings and happenings. I probably have wasted those years for nothing, but it was the choice that I made. I've learned some of this and that, so it's not a complete waste of time after all.

Tomorrow should be a better start ( I plan to spend my day sleeping, though :p ). It's time to move on :)

Another year

It's another year.....

to think
to reconsider
to clean up the mess
to learn
to heal

and in the end....

to be free.